Waiting

 

 

In recent posts we established that I am not good at waiting nor do I like to wait (who does?). Once I make up my mind on something I am focused on it at full speed ahead. Well, this mindset or personality trait (or whatever you want to call), is not conducive to the international adoption process because that process is all about waiting (and paperwork).  Lots and lots of waiting. I actually sent Jason a text not long ago that says, "I don't think I am cut out for this," and by 'this', I mean waiting (and being patience).

I know that God is in control and that everything is in His time, but that doesn't always make the waiting easier. Lately I have been trying to put the adoption waiting at the back of my mind and focus on the here and now, but it is so hard! So, I decided to do a little study on waiting and share some of what I learned (I actually did this study a few months ago, but am just now getting around to posting it).
 

Waiting requires the passage of time (which is of course the hard part), but when I read this I immediately had the thought that the passage of time is necessary because it is during that time of waiting God is working and fulfilling His plans. God's timing is perfect and He will accomplish the plans He has laid out, but it will be in His time, not ours. It reminds us that God is in control, and although it is hard for a control freak like me I should really see it as an amazing source of peace and comfort because I know that if I were in control (and I admit that at times I slip into thinking that I am) I would completely botch everything. I would much rather have our perfect, loving, all mighty Father in control. 

 

All of this reminded me of one of my favorite songs Sovereign Over Us by Aaron Keys:

'You are working in our waiting,

Sanctifying us

When beyond our understanding

You're teaching us to trust'

Ahh, there it is...trust. Waiting is God asking us if we trust Him. Do we trust Him even when we can't see what He is doing? When we have no idea of His timetable? It is in the waiting that He is teaching us--to trust Him, to follow Him, that He is in complete control, and that though we can't see it He has a perfect plan. It is hard at times, but I know that trusting God and waiting on His timing will be so very worth it. So I will keep waiting...and trusting....

"If any are inclined to despond, because they do not have such patience, let them be of good courage. It is in the course of our feeble and very imperfect waiting that God Himself, by His hidden power, strengthens us and works out in us the patience of the great saints, the patience of Christ Himself."
– Andrew Murray